Dear You...

This might sound crazy..but this is what I feel about you..

The first time I saw u..u amazed me with that move,the way u sing and even smile..I was only 5 when I saw u.Then I started to learn ur move,to remember ur choreography,read everything about you..

I remember I was at bday party and then someone played ur song and I start to dance in front of everyone..and I knew that moment I'm in ♥ with u..

I practiced english with ur songs,I even wrote u a letter..but I guess u won't understand either coz I was only 6 and my english bad (still now i guess..)

Years gone by and I still listen to ur music,I even read all gossip 'bout u..to be honest I don't care bcoz nobody perfect ure just human,like everyone..

When I heard about that news,I was really really really really shocked!!I cried,I don't care what my family said..I just cried..I remember my bestfriend from elementary (who knows that I'm ur biggest fan)called and say "dinda,u must be devastated" and I said " I feel so stupid right now but I don't care coz I ♥ him"..can't stop crying for 3 days,it really hurts so much knowing ure gone too soon..it is till now.

I really don't care what people said,to me ure a legend..I mean I grew up with ur song..you're my big part of my childhood..u taught me how to dance if its not bcoz of u,maybe I won't be like now..(how it feels to be on tv hahaha..)

I miss how u sing,ur smile,when u dance..I really miss u..but I know ure happy up there,finally they(paparazi) can leave u alone..Rest in Peace Michael Joseph Jackson..we will always rock with you..

PS:say hi to my mom,she knows how much I ♥ you qiqiqi

Tararengkyu..

Sometimes in life we forget to say "THANK YOU" to God,Family,couple and friends..we often forget to say Thank You to GOD...in life we often look "above" but never look "down"..don't push yourself to get what you haven't got but be grateful for what you have..I know its not easy,I mean hey we're just human right?often make mistake..the imperfect creature..

This note is inspired by my brother and my beloved mom..sometimes I always bitchin' about my life..tired to do this/that,bored of this/that..without realize that I'm able to do anything,I'm still breathing,healthy and still have chance to do anything..well I'm still trying to wake up everyday and say "THANK YOU" to God for keep letting me open my eyes..I mean what happen suddenly if I can't open my eyes??than I won't have the chance to do what I haven't achieve rite??I'm not trying to give you all "crap" about life..I'm not perfect,but at least I'm trying to share my thought about saying "THANK YOU".....

a note from a sister to her brother

I may not say I love you everyday or not always there when you need me..
I may not always called to say "hi,how's ur day" or texted you..and I know I won't be able to replace mom but trust me I try so hard to be a good sister..

Dear brother,do you know that we've wait for you for 8 years..and when you were born I learn to be a good sister,someone you can rely on..
so many years we've been through,happy and sad time..so many time you are really irritating me..so do I I guess??
when mom passed away,we feel lost rite?but we still have each other..I know you still need her and we both lost moment when we still need her..but God has his own reason..and I believe its a good thing for us..

Do you know that I'm really grateful to have you as my brother..when I did silly things,its really really good to see you laugh,or when you need a hug I try my best not to cry while I hug you..when I get cranky or sad you listen to my story..
we are a package so I will always need you..

And now I'm watching you sleeping,its funny how time flies so fast,how life has treated you..you never complained..your optimism and willing to move on..you finish your high school,you get what you want in academic and your friends and teacher gave you "The Inspiring Student"award..well you are really inspiring..

I'm proud of you bro,so proud to be your sister and I know mom too..eventhough she's no longer here but I know she will..you're my best friend and my brother..forgive me if I never make you proud,or maybe kinda forget you and even acting like a bitch mad at you..well I'm just playing my role as a big sister..and its not easy..but I love you so much and won't let anyone or anything standing your way..I'm still learning to be a sister..never give up!!!thousand kisses and huge hug for you..(Sorry if I cry a lot ;p)