Too Fast to Live,Too Young to Die

Well its been a while since i wrote my last one..many things change..so i guess i'll try to write it down then..

I've lost someone few weeks ago..my dear friend, good friend of mine..he passed away cause he sick..3 weeks before he died he promise to call me cause i've never heard of him for 2 months...but i guess he won't call..

Mungkin itu pertanda kalau dia bakal ngucapin "goodbye" ke gw..cm gak nyangka kl hrs secepat ini aja.Okay,let me tell you about him...he's a nice person well though he always assumed that he is a bad person but i dont think he is..dia merubah pola pikir gw, walaupun kadang gw suka berdebat but i must admitted that he's right. DIa salah satu temen curhat gw..dia slalu bilang kl dia kadang capek hidup, capek sm perspektif org ttng dirinya. Tp dia slalu inget sm keluarganya utk tdk melakukan hal yg aneh2.

selama 6 bulan gw dkt sm dia,dia slalu cerita kl dia kangen banget sm anaknya (ada masalah intern antara dia dan bininya)..until on September he called me and said"i'm gonna meet my son again"and i'm so happy for you..but too bad you only had 2 months to see your son again.

Entah knp setelah dia gak ada, gw slalu dimimpiin dan melihat "tanda2" yg mengingatkan gw akan dia. DIdlm mimpi dia ky ngobrol sm gw tp gw gak dngr suara dr mulutnya. My friend said "mungkin blm saatnya lo dngr yg dia ucapin"...well i dont know..i just miss him somuch

I still cant believe he's gone..forever..kynya br kmrn gw chat ato tlp2an sm dia...i just wish i cud talk to him for the last time, i really want to hear his voice..

May you rest in peace Max Vigo Schulz..hope you find your happiness above..i always miss you,dear friend

Dear You...

This might sound crazy..but this is what I feel about you..

The first time I saw u..u amazed me with that move,the way u sing and even smile..I was only 5 when I saw u.Then I started to learn ur move,to remember ur choreography,read everything about you..

I remember I was at bday party and then someone played ur song and I start to dance in front of everyone..and I knew that moment I'm in ♥ with u..

I practiced english with ur songs,I even wrote u a letter..but I guess u won't understand either coz I was only 6 and my english bad (still now i guess..)

Years gone by and I still listen to ur music,I even read all gossip 'bout u..to be honest I don't care bcoz nobody perfect ure just human,like everyone..

When I heard about that news,I was really really really really shocked!!I cried,I don't care what my family said..I just cried..I remember my bestfriend from elementary (who knows that I'm ur biggest fan)called and say "dinda,u must be devastated" and I said " I feel so stupid right now but I don't care coz I ♥ him"..can't stop crying for 3 days,it really hurts so much knowing ure gone too soon..it is till now.

I really don't care what people said,to me ure a legend..I mean I grew up with ur song..you're my big part of my childhood..u taught me how to dance if its not bcoz of u,maybe I won't be like now..(how it feels to be on tv hahaha..)

I miss how u sing,ur smile,when u dance..I really miss u..but I know ure happy up there,finally they(paparazi) can leave u alone..Rest in Peace Michael Joseph Jackson..we will always rock with you..

PS:say hi to my mom,she knows how much I ♥ you qiqiqi

Tararengkyu..

Sometimes in life we forget to say "THANK YOU" to God,Family,couple and friends..we often forget to say Thank You to GOD...in life we often look "above" but never look "down"..don't push yourself to get what you haven't got but be grateful for what you have..I know its not easy,I mean hey we're just human right?often make mistake..the imperfect creature..

This note is inspired by my brother and my beloved mom..sometimes I always bitchin' about my life..tired to do this/that,bored of this/that..without realize that I'm able to do anything,I'm still breathing,healthy and still have chance to do anything..well I'm still trying to wake up everyday and say "THANK YOU" to God for keep letting me open my eyes..I mean what happen suddenly if I can't open my eyes??than I won't have the chance to do what I haven't achieve rite??I'm not trying to give you all "crap" about life..I'm not perfect,but at least I'm trying to share my thought about saying "THANK YOU".....

a note from a sister to her brother

I may not say I love you everyday or not always there when you need me..
I may not always called to say "hi,how's ur day" or texted you..and I know I won't be able to replace mom but trust me I try so hard to be a good sister..

Dear brother,do you know that we've wait for you for 8 years..and when you were born I learn to be a good sister,someone you can rely on..
so many years we've been through,happy and sad time..so many time you are really irritating me..so do I I guess??
when mom passed away,we feel lost rite?but we still have each other..I know you still need her and we both lost moment when we still need her..but God has his own reason..and I believe its a good thing for us..

Do you know that I'm really grateful to have you as my brother..when I did silly things,its really really good to see you laugh,or when you need a hug I try my best not to cry while I hug you..when I get cranky or sad you listen to my story..
we are a package so I will always need you..

And now I'm watching you sleeping,its funny how time flies so fast,how life has treated you..you never complained..your optimism and willing to move on..you finish your high school,you get what you want in academic and your friends and teacher gave you "The Inspiring Student"award..well you are really inspiring..

I'm proud of you bro,so proud to be your sister and I know mom too..eventhough she's no longer here but I know she will..you're my best friend and my brother..forgive me if I never make you proud,or maybe kinda forget you and even acting like a bitch mad at you..well I'm just playing my role as a big sister..and its not easy..but I love you so much and won't let anyone or anything standing your way..I'm still learning to be a sister..never give up!!!thousand kisses and huge hug for you..(Sorry if I cry a lot ;p)

Everything happen for a reason..

Have u ever regret everything that happens in your life??sebenernya boleh gak sie kita menyesali apa yang udah terjadi di hidup kita?kesannya kok kaya tidak menghargai pemberian Tuhan yah??tapi..kita sebagai manusia pasti punya rasa itu..rasa menyesal..kadang kita juga suka ngomong.."Ya Allah, seandainya...." atau "kenapa sie?..."those question is the hardest question..seperti kl ada anak nanya sm ibunya "bunda,knp sie kaya gini?"si ibu bilang "ya because i said so!"..mungkin seperti itu kali yah jawaban dari pertanyaan kita..

Pertanyaan yg sering gw temuin adalah "knp sie gw hrs ketemu dia dr awal","knp sie gw mst sayang sm dia?", dll..atau gak.."harusnya gak kaya gini..","kenapa sie gw gak bs lebih baik..."atau "Ya Allah, knp Engkau hrs mengambilnya?", "Knp sie cobaan Mu bgt berat?"...ya semua itu yg tau cuma Yang Diatas sana..like my dearest friend said to me.." lo ga akan nemu jawabannya Coz everything happen for a reason.. U know that rite jd percuma lo brtanya2 why why n why.... N we must deal with that(thank u for that words)

That's rite..there's nothing that we can do..cuma bisa ngejalanin yang udah digarisin oleh Sang pencipta..So instead we keep asking..asking and asking yg bikin susah tidur atau malah kaya org stress we better enjoy it rite??

Hate Me..

Pernah gak sie mikir knp mesti ada pertemuan kl akhirnya bakal ada perpisahan??Awalnya
Pst manis,bawaannya pengen senyum trs..kdng smp ketawa2 sndr ky org gila..tp bgt pisah
Yg ada malah cacian dan tangisan...nah paling males tahapan setelah perpisahan adalah MOVING ON!!
Hayaa its not easy to move on..kl yg normalnya sie bakalan ada tangis bandang trs tangis trs mewek
Trs tetesan air mata baru deh senyuman..beberapa hr ini gw liat gosip soal artis yg berantem sm mantan pacarnya
Dua2nya slng ngejelekin,slng vokal di infotainment..busyeet dah!!aneh bngt sie,dulu aja
Sayang2an,peluk2an,gombal2an....bgt putus udah berasa najis tralala..

Knp sie mst ada perpisahan dan benci?apa biar sama2 mudah utk move on?biar lbh gampang utk
Ngelupain?kynya gak gt jg deh..yg lucunya kl udah pisah dan si cewek yg msh mewek dan si cowo
(Cowok dgn niatan membantu)pst will do anything to make her hate him..ngerti gak?si cowok sie maksudnya
Baik utk membantu biar sama2 move on..dgn cara mencaci atau do something bad..its all to make her
Hate him..tp sbnrnya kl dipikir2 the more you try to hate someone,the more you think about them
The more you ♥ them!!

You can lie to her/him but you can't lie to your heart..your lips can say "I hate you"
But look into your heart...siapa yg lo boongin??so please to all couples out there
Kl emang hrs pisah,ya pisah baik2..gak plu ada caci maki sumpah serapah..jgn tlalu
Membuat/memaksakan diri utk membenci dia..just let it flow..biarin aja smua berjalan
Gak usah tlalu dipaksain.

And when you said"just go away and hate me" and if he/she said to you " I will"
That means You will always in her/his heart..Love doesn't have to have each other..
Sucks rite?but that's the way love is...kisskiss

Don't die yet..

Okay..so life is not easy..its tough..but doesn't mean when tough get rough you just give up..
Semua orang pernah ngerasain saatnya bener2 dihadapin masalah dan ngerasa gak bisa ngadepinnya..dan dengan otak kosong pasti berpikir.."i better end my life.."just simple like that..but sebenernya kalau we end our life juga..ehm..masalah baru pasti muncul..masalah buat yg ditinggal seperti keluarga,pacar,suami/istri.anak,temen2..so instead of ending your life,maybe you could find someone to talk to..someone you can rely on,someone you can trust..pasti ada yang mau denger curhatan lo..just open your eyes..

And when that doesn't work..just thing someone that is your reason to stay alive..i mean ehm bisa satu/dua orang yang bisa jadi your reason to stay alive...just think and look inside your heart.. i know it will work..

Maybe you feel like you're a bad person..but for someone out there you are special..when you feel that there's no one in this world who loves you..just think that out there there's someone who think about you and love you..you just don't know it..that person is someone that longing to hear your voice,that someone who still want to see your smile..that someone who still needs your laugh to fill her/his world..

Remember,somewhere out there ada orang yang punya masalah lebih berat dari kita, and we're not alone..just like my mom said "Allah tidak pernah memberikan cobaan melebihi kemampuan umatNya.."

So when life seems so hopeless, keep your chin up and remember you still have someone to share..you're not alone..