Everything happen for a reason..

Have u ever regret everything that happens in your life??sebenernya boleh gak sie kita menyesali apa yang udah terjadi di hidup kita?kesannya kok kaya tidak menghargai pemberian Tuhan yah??tapi..kita sebagai manusia pasti punya rasa itu..rasa menyesal..kadang kita juga suka ngomong.."Ya Allah, seandainya...." atau "kenapa sie?..."those question is the hardest question..seperti kl ada anak nanya sm ibunya "bunda,knp sie kaya gini?"si ibu bilang "ya because i said so!"..mungkin seperti itu kali yah jawaban dari pertanyaan kita..

Pertanyaan yg sering gw temuin adalah "knp sie gw hrs ketemu dia dr awal","knp sie gw mst sayang sm dia?", dll..atau gak.."harusnya gak kaya gini..","kenapa sie gw gak bs lebih baik..."atau "Ya Allah, knp Engkau hrs mengambilnya?", "Knp sie cobaan Mu bgt berat?"...ya semua itu yg tau cuma Yang Diatas sana..like my dearest friend said to me.." lo ga akan nemu jawabannya Coz everything happen for a reason.. U know that rite jd percuma lo brtanya2 why why n why.... N we must deal with that(thank u for that words)

That's rite..there's nothing that we can do..cuma bisa ngejalanin yang udah digarisin oleh Sang pencipta..So instead we keep asking..asking and asking yg bikin susah tidur atau malah kaya org stress we better enjoy it rite??

Hate Me..

Pernah gak sie mikir knp mesti ada pertemuan kl akhirnya bakal ada perpisahan??Awalnya
Pst manis,bawaannya pengen senyum trs..kdng smp ketawa2 sndr ky org gila..tp bgt pisah
Yg ada malah cacian dan tangisan...nah paling males tahapan setelah perpisahan adalah MOVING ON!!
Hayaa its not easy to move on..kl yg normalnya sie bakalan ada tangis bandang trs tangis trs mewek
Trs tetesan air mata baru deh senyuman..beberapa hr ini gw liat gosip soal artis yg berantem sm mantan pacarnya
Dua2nya slng ngejelekin,slng vokal di infotainment..busyeet dah!!aneh bngt sie,dulu aja
Sayang2an,peluk2an,gombal2an....bgt putus udah berasa najis tralala..

Knp sie mst ada perpisahan dan benci?apa biar sama2 mudah utk move on?biar lbh gampang utk
Ngelupain?kynya gak gt jg deh..yg lucunya kl udah pisah dan si cewek yg msh mewek dan si cowo
(Cowok dgn niatan membantu)pst will do anything to make her hate him..ngerti gak?si cowok sie maksudnya
Baik utk membantu biar sama2 move on..dgn cara mencaci atau do something bad..its all to make her
Hate him..tp sbnrnya kl dipikir2 the more you try to hate someone,the more you think about them
The more you ♥ them!!

You can lie to her/him but you can't lie to your heart..your lips can say "I hate you"
But look into your heart...siapa yg lo boongin??so please to all couples out there
Kl emang hrs pisah,ya pisah baik2..gak plu ada caci maki sumpah serapah..jgn tlalu
Membuat/memaksakan diri utk membenci dia..just let it flow..biarin aja smua berjalan
Gak usah tlalu dipaksain.

And when you said"just go away and hate me" and if he/she said to you " I will"
That means You will always in her/his heart..Love doesn't have to have each other..
Sucks rite?but that's the way love is...kisskiss

Don't die yet..

Okay..so life is not easy..its tough..but doesn't mean when tough get rough you just give up..
Semua orang pernah ngerasain saatnya bener2 dihadapin masalah dan ngerasa gak bisa ngadepinnya..dan dengan otak kosong pasti berpikir.."i better end my life.."just simple like that..but sebenernya kalau we end our life juga..ehm..masalah baru pasti muncul..masalah buat yg ditinggal seperti keluarga,pacar,suami/istri.anak,temen2..so instead of ending your life,maybe you could find someone to talk to..someone you can rely on,someone you can trust..pasti ada yang mau denger curhatan lo..just open your eyes..

And when that doesn't work..just thing someone that is your reason to stay alive..i mean ehm bisa satu/dua orang yang bisa jadi your reason to stay alive...just think and look inside your heart.. i know it will work..

Maybe you feel like you're a bad person..but for someone out there you are special..when you feel that there's no one in this world who loves you..just think that out there there's someone who think about you and love you..you just don't know it..that person is someone that longing to hear your voice,that someone who still want to see your smile..that someone who still needs your laugh to fill her/his world..

Remember,somewhere out there ada orang yang punya masalah lebih berat dari kita, and we're not alone..just like my mom said "Allah tidak pernah memberikan cobaan melebihi kemampuan umatNya.."

So when life seems so hopeless, keep your chin up and remember you still have someone to share..you're not alone..

When a man loves a woman

"When a man loves a woman Can't keep his mind on nothing else
He'll trade the world For the good thing he's found"

Cuplikan lirik dr lagu..ehm..buat gw berpikir, emang iya yah?kl laki2 lagi jatuh cinta kaya gt?bukannya cuma awalnya doang kaya gt?maksud gw..kl lagi pendekatan yg aktif banget nelpon/sms..tapi begitu udah dapat..wuidiih..langsung pasang gaya sok cool..kaya kuli..(???) terus tinggal kitanya deh yg kaya mulai cari cara utk cari perhatiannya lagi...Men can say some bullshit yg bikin kita deg2 seer..kita dah tau nie kl itu BULLSHIT..tapi emang dasar cewek yah tetep aja percaya..termehek2..hahahaha

Terus kalo cewek yg gombal atau mainin perasaan cowok dibilang cewek gak bener lah..knp cowok bisa/boleh jadi player tp kl cewek kaya msh tabu??dan knp slalu cewek yg dipihak yg dirugikan??it's just not fair..tapi..yah..gmn lagi emang udah hukum alam..and theres nothing that i, you, or we can do about it...

Forgetting someone..

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-y

ou-apart pain. I hate love..

Theyt want us to act like we've never kissed, they want to forget; pretend we've never met , and we''ve tried and we've tried, but we haven't yet...They walk by, and wefall to pieces...

Everygirl has their own Jacob..

Okay..i wrote this based on my favourite movie.."TWILIGHT"..i mean i'm in love with this EDWARD CULLEN..selain dr fisiknya yg rupawan but i love the way he loves Bella,the way he see bella,the way he protect her and mostly i love the way he kiss bella..(okey kalo dilanjutin soal the kisses gw akan jauh ngelamun..)..Pada dasarnya gw gak suka cowok posesif..tp entah knp kayanya kl dikasih si bang eed mau2 aja...hahahah..

Okey cukup soal my madness about Edward Cullen..well di film itu kan bella has two guy in her life, Edward and Jacob..we both know in twilight bella with edward..but in New Moon bella with jacob..awalnya gw berpikir kl bella plin plan dan segala macem..tp tnyata kl dipikir2, she just lonely..she needs someone to talk to and Jacob came..so in the real life semua org (cewe dlm kasus ini)pst pnah dlm posisi kesepian dan butuh temen ngobrol (tapi cowok)..jadi kayanya wajar2 aja yah??asal gak kebawa perasaan aja..ehm..agak susah juga sie krn cewek pst dimana2 main perasaan (?????)>>So what i mean is every girl has their own "Jacob",someone who can make them laugh,someone to talk to in the middle of night...someone to hold on to, to hug (sambil ngebayangin bodynya jacob..ha3)..gak harus end up as a secret affair sie,bs aja hubungannya kan cuma as best friend (tp kynya cowo dan cewe gak bs cm berteman yah?)but what happens when it has to end?when Edward come back or when we have to face reality that nothing gonna happen between you and jacob?when you really realize that it wont last between you and jacob?when we(girls) has to choose??who will it be? well if it's me..like bella said in the movie.."Don't make me choose, 'cause it will be him..it's always been him(edward)"..okay see u later Twilighters LOL

Lagi kangen

It's not easy to leave my day without you beside me
cause i need you to hold my hand when things getting tough and i need you to hug me when i'm getting weak..
I need you to be there when i'm awake at night
i miss you so..
i miss the way you laugh when i act fool
i miss the way you make me laugh
i miss doing that stupid face with you...
i've realize what you mean to me when you're not with me
cause you are my soulmate...the other part of me
you fill me with love and happiness..
With you i will..walk to the future
For you i will....wait for you to come home and share our stories
I love you as a bestfriend, a brother and a husband
This is not a love letter but a promise to love you more..and more each day
For better or worse and 'Till death do us part

This is my day

You're not here to give me a tender kiss or a warm hug
How much i miss you..
I'm alone dear, wishing for you to come and bring back my smile
I don't need a gift or a dozen roses.. just your stupid and irreplaceble face..

I love you so cause you are my life..my world
my smile..my tears..
Hope i could fly and be with you rght now

God know how much i miss you..
even all the years that we've been through i still miss you
I miss you so and it makes me cry while i wrote this note for you.

on This special dayi would like to wish to the stars and the moon and all the beautiful things that Hod has create..
And my wish is to have you here hold me close...
cause damn i miss you so much..

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...dance with my father...

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then

Spin me around till I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure
I was loved

If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I?d play a song that would never, ever end
How I?d love, love, love to dance with my father again

When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He?d make me laugh just to comfort me, yeah, yeah
Then finally make me do just what my mama said

Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he
Would be gone from me

If I could steal one final glance
One final step, one final dance with him
I?d play a song that would never, ever end
?Cause I?d love, love, love to dance with my father
again

Sometimes I?d listen outside her door
And I?d hear her, mama cryin? for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me

I know I?m prayin? for much too much
But could You send back the only man she loved
I know You don?t do it usually
But Lord, she?s dyin? to dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep
And this is all I ever dream

Dear God..

DearGod...

I speak to you as a woman
to take care of her man...
Hear me whispering his name
through my lips...
Give me strength to survive...

I speak to you as a wife..
To fill love in her husband heart...

Fragile

I run to the highest place to hear you..feel you again..
But still you're not there...
I close my eys
and yet i can't see you..
I fall to the ground
and cry out loud how i miss you...
Take me from these emptiness
cause God know how fragile I am....

gak tau ah..

Pernah gak ngerasa kaya pengen nangis tapi gak bisa,ato pengen marah tapi cuma bisa diem?gak enak banget rasanya..gak enak rasanya kalo gak bs ngungkapin apa yg kita rasain..mungkin karena emang gak boleh ato gak bisa..menurut gw smua org berhak ngungkapin apa yg dirasain tanpa dibatesin..tp kl kita dihadapin sm org yg bs ngungkapin perasaannya,pasti ada pemikiran kl dia itu orgnya emosional..iya kan?padahal he/she just trying to express what he /she feels and there's nothing wrong with that..so what should we do??ato kadang kita memilih utk cerita ke teman terdekat kita..tapi..can we trust them??ya namanya sahabat pasti bs jaga rahasia dan slalu support kita..tapi kan kita gak tau kedepannya..kl tiba2 kita bermasalah sm mereka, apakah mrk akan menyebarkan semua rahasia kita??

Aaaarrggghh...gak tau ah..pusink,capek..gak ngerti..cuma bs diem aja (lagi dan lagi)

Life without you

Have u ever feel like u want to cry,but u can't..bcoz u have to look tough?
Well that's how I feel now.I really wish u were here mom..to hug me,lift my head and wipe my tears..
Kaka gak tau apakah kaka udah jd anak yg berbakti wat mama..mngkn bnyk hal yg mama gak bs liat
Kaka udah jd istri dan ibu,ma..udah 3 thn lebih kaka ngejalanin smua..dan alangkah bahagianya kaka kl mama bs ngedampingin kaka
Allah pny rencanaNya sndr yah ma..mngkn kl mama msh ada kaka akan jd anak manja..but I'm still learning to be a wife n mom..and its not easy mom!!
Kita g pnah tau umur kita..smp kpn kaka bs liat aika tumbuh,atau ngurus ade nya nanti.
Mama waktu ninggalin kaka dan ade,ada rasa khawatir gak sie?kaka lg mikir kl umur kaka gak panjang,gmn yah rsnya ninggalin aika
Apa ikhlas itu dtng gt aja ma?sprt kaka,papa dan ade yg wkt tgl 9 januari 2006 jam 00.36 ikhlas ngelepas mama?mama yg udah 22 thn ngerawat kaka yg bandel ini
Dan kaka ikhlas dan kuat ngeliat dgn kedua mata kaka gmn mama wkt sakaratul maut,ngeliat hembusan napas terakhir mama..
Pengalaman yg gak akan tergantikan ma..
Mama ngajarin kaka manja tp skrg mama ngajarin kaka utk mandiri..dinda yg dulu beda sm dinda yg skrg
Ehm..cengengnya sie msh ma..msh sk nangis kl sedih,kesel marah sm org..
Ky skrg..God I really wish if I cud sleep beside u,feel ur gentle touch..curhat smbl ketawa2..
Life make a good lesson for me mom,I met diffrent person who taught me how to see thing diffrent too
Sometimes I feel like they're maybe just "cara" mama utk nasehatin kaka..ky melalui mrk sprtnya mama bs ngasih tau kaka
Things won't be the same without u..I miss how we're spent our family time
But now it seems everybody have their own business..its funny how people come and go in my life mom
They never stay mom..like when u left I feel like have no wings..but then Aika came..she's like represent you..
I miss u..papa..ade..rumah buncit..when we're still one family..
Thanku mom for teaching me life,♥ and happinness..
I miss u always in every heartbeat and till I die..hope we could meet up again..(That mean I have to be
Good rite?!qiqiqi)
Okay...kaka sdh meneteskan banyak air mata..kisskiss and big hug for you mom..
Doain kaka terus biar tambah dan slalu sabar dlm menghadapi smua..amin..

Man&woman or Man vs woman??

So..this is what i thought..why do man and woman never can't be friend?i mean pure friend..pada awalnya oke deh cuma temenan..tp selanjutnya...pasti ada yg lebih..syukur2 kl dua2nya yg ada perasaan..kl cm salah satu??wah ini nie yg males..kadang org suka salah menafsirkan sikap..dan kadang orang dilingkungan sekitar jg gak bs menerima kenyataan kl "mereka itu cuma temenan"..pasti ada embel2 "eh mereka pacaran yah?"..whaat???gak gitu juga kaleee...kl cuma temenan aja emang gak boleh?kadang org itu ada yg udah punya pasangan tapi ngerasa nyaman dengan org lain dengan perasaan tulus..

Yang menyebalkan adalah ketika kita deket sm org,pny temen ngobrol deket lah ceritanya..trs salah satunya sadar kl dia pny perasaan lebih/merasa lingkungan disekitar sudah mulai menggosipkan mereka..dan org itu akhirnya bilang "gw emang sengaja jaga jarak sm lo.."whaaat????ade ape??yaudahlah biarin aja kl org mau ngegosip kan yg tau keadaannya ya kita dgn org itu..

ENtahlah kadang gak ngerti pola pikir orang..mungkin semua org pemikirannya beda..tp menurut gw tergantung kadar org melihat,mendengar dan menanggapi saja..ya begitulah...see u again on my next curhatan..kisskiss

People never really stay..

I realize people never really stay..they just come and go..but they never really stay..friendship,lover or even family..Disaat lo pikir" ini nie sahabat sejati gw" ato "ini nie my soulmate" tapi sebenernya mereka cuma dateng dan pergi..pasti kita merasa kecewa dengan kepergian mereka awalnya yah..tapi akhirnya lo cukup dewasa dan mengerti kalau sebenernya ada tujuan/maksud lain dr smua ini..dari kepergian mereka. KAdang kita dah percaya banget sm temen temen yg kita anggap kaya sodara sendiri dan ternyata mereka bener2 bikin kita kecewa sampai yg buat kita sedih..jujur gw bkn tipe org yg suka marah2..kl ada yg bikin gw kecewa pst gw akan diem..gw gak akan ngejauh tapi cukup diem dan pasti org itu akan merasa perubahan sikap gw...APalagi kl kecewa sm pasangan..waduuh udah bener2 bikin stress deh..bawaannya pengen nangis mulu ...
Kayanya gw dah cukup menyadari cara hidup berputar..kadang kita diatas dan kadang dibawah..people come and go..itu udah bener2 perilaku alam..waktu people really go than you realize that they're just part of your memories..and always will..even kl mereka balik lagi ke kehidupan lo tetep aja mereka adalah bagian dari memori lo yg suatu saat akan pergi lagi..
So, dont worry if u see your friends or lovers go away cause its just the way of life goes..