Life without you

Have u ever feel like u want to cry,but u can't..bcoz u have to look tough?
Well that's how I feel now.I really wish u were here mom..to hug me,lift my head and wipe my tears..
Kaka gak tau apakah kaka udah jd anak yg berbakti wat mama..mngkn bnyk hal yg mama gak bs liat
Kaka udah jd istri dan ibu,ma..udah 3 thn lebih kaka ngejalanin smua..dan alangkah bahagianya kaka kl mama bs ngedampingin kaka
Allah pny rencanaNya sndr yah ma..mngkn kl mama msh ada kaka akan jd anak manja..but I'm still learning to be a wife n mom..and its not easy mom!!
Kita g pnah tau umur kita..smp kpn kaka bs liat aika tumbuh,atau ngurus ade nya nanti.
Mama waktu ninggalin kaka dan ade,ada rasa khawatir gak sie?kaka lg mikir kl umur kaka gak panjang,gmn yah rsnya ninggalin aika
Apa ikhlas itu dtng gt aja ma?sprt kaka,papa dan ade yg wkt tgl 9 januari 2006 jam 00.36 ikhlas ngelepas mama?mama yg udah 22 thn ngerawat kaka yg bandel ini
Dan kaka ikhlas dan kuat ngeliat dgn kedua mata kaka gmn mama wkt sakaratul maut,ngeliat hembusan napas terakhir mama..
Pengalaman yg gak akan tergantikan ma..
Mama ngajarin kaka manja tp skrg mama ngajarin kaka utk mandiri..dinda yg dulu beda sm dinda yg skrg
Ehm..cengengnya sie msh ma..msh sk nangis kl sedih,kesel marah sm org..
Ky skrg..God I really wish if I cud sleep beside u,feel ur gentle touch..curhat smbl ketawa2..
Life make a good lesson for me mom,I met diffrent person who taught me how to see thing diffrent too
Sometimes I feel like they're maybe just "cara" mama utk nasehatin kaka..ky melalui mrk sprtnya mama bs ngasih tau kaka
Things won't be the same without u..I miss how we're spent our family time
But now it seems everybody have their own business..its funny how people come and go in my life mom
They never stay mom..like when u left I feel like have no wings..but then Aika came..she's like represent you..
I miss u..papa..ade..rumah buncit..when we're still one family..
Thanku mom for teaching me life,♥ and happinness..
I miss u always in every heartbeat and till I die..hope we could meet up again..(That mean I have to be
Good rite?!qiqiqi)
Okay...kaka sdh meneteskan banyak air mata..kisskiss and big hug for you mom..
Doain kaka terus biar tambah dan slalu sabar dlm menghadapi smua..amin..